I wrote this album to let out all the pain and confusion I was feeling during a very difficult time of my life - music's always helped keep me sane...
I turned into music my feeling of not being adequate to this world; the shock of seeing the horrors human beings can perpetrate when I saw some documentaries on nazism and realized that the very same kinds of things still go on in many parts of the world, even if on a smaller scale and under different names; the accident I had at the beginning of 2005 with a chainsaw that split one side of my face in half, and the notion that some scars carve pain deeper into us and are harder to cure than those of the body; the desire for bad times as hard as a winter to end; my attempts at understanding some of the things that were going on around and inside of me; the loneliness I felt in that place where nobody could reach me; the feeling that all was wrong; my willingness to do all it took to straighten things out; and the sensation that sometimes in life even light seems to be black...
